There she goes...making the next part of the journey without us.
Without those she loved and those who loved her. But that's how it is when it is our time to sprout our wings and fly with the angels. We walk the line, we follow the road and when the conditions are "just right", the air lifts our newly blossomed wings and we soar higher, higher and higher.
In May 2005 there were 3 of us diagnosed with breast cancer, all within weeks of one another. The other two women didn't know each other, but I knew each of them. Three different kinds of breast cancer, three different diagnoses and three different treatments. Breast cancer is like that. It's as individual as we are. We carried on and we got back to the business of living our lives, because that's what you do after treatment is over. You carry on. You put it behind you but you know it's always there, lurking in the shadows...it might step out again, it might not. Allowing the fear of that possibility to consume you robs you of so much of the joy and beauty of life and cripples you from moving forward. The fear allows cancer to have too much power, power which is does not deserve. If it returns, as it did for one of us, you dig in, you do what is necessary and you make your peace with whatever the outcome will be. It's all you can do. And I know this. The lessons I have learned from Pat's experience are gifts that she left, not just for me, but for others.
On Tuesday morning a very lovely woman by the name of Pat sprouted those wings and made her way to the final destination of her journey here on earth. I like to think that she's with those she has loved who have gone before her and she's taken her wit, her laughter and her generous heart with her. I see loving arms that were waiting for her to embrace her once again and offer comfort from the pain that her returned cancer brought into her life. This wonderful woman is now beyond pain, worry and care. Her spirit will always remain.
Those who are left behind to mourn...can take heart in the knowledge that life is about who we are in the "now", what we do, what we share, what we give. It is about appreciating the beauty and the joy. We will never understand the cruelty of cancer so isn't it better to focus on and dwell on the blessings? Pat had many blessings in her life and she was a blessing to so many. I'll think about that as I blow wishes of love and safe journey up towards the sky.